Why I stopped Believing

What to know my secret
That I never told

I don't believe in god anymore

I really used to
I prayed everynight

Always for the same
For the safety of my love's life

One day I got a letter
Under his mother's name

She said she didn't know
I guess I was the same

She was sorry for what she had to say
I wish I hadn't read

He died oneday or night
And now layed in his death bed

I don't know why that made me stop believing
But all I wanted I had

For him to be safe
For him to be happy

I guess he doesn't have to worry anymore
So I guess I must be glad

But even though that happened
I still look for him

And god has not been in my life since
I pray when I'm told to but never in my heart

I still think maybe I should be better
In case I still have a chance to be with him

But when he was gone
My will seemed to go with him

And my faith in god