Love and Hate

Sometimes the flame still burns me
Like a fire out of control
Other times I feel like a lost puppy
Left out in the cold

How can his love move me
As if my heart was on wheels
And then leave me so lonely
With nothing left to feel

One day I look at him
And my heart will skip a beat
Then I feel like giving up
I am packed full of defeat

Sometimes I want to hold him
And tell him I am so in love
Other times I dream of escaping
And feel like giving up

Why such mixed emotions
Why the love and hate
Why is my greatest passion
Sometimes my worst mistake

Why do I have to try so hard
To convince myself he is the one
Yet sometimes it is so easy
To feel so deep in love

Why do I love him so
Yet dream of moving on
One day I want him with me
The next day I wish him gone

It is like a roller coaster
With lots of ups and downs
One day I am grinning ear to ear
Then suddenly I am feeling so let down

I have to stop blaming myself
For this whirlwind he puts me through
And somehow admit to myself that
There is nothing left I can do

Sometimes we are so distant
Living like two roommates
Then we are close again
And I believe that we are fate

Sometimes when I am distant
He will reach out to me
But I am living solitaire
Lonely as can be

Occasionally I give in
And try his love once more
But each time I open up
He seems to close the door

How many times will it take
Before we find common ground
Will love ever take over us
Or will we finally drowned

Will we ever get it right
Will we sink or swim
Will I ever break down the walls
And reach his love within

I really want to love him
But he pushes me away
And then wonders why I act
Like the witch I am today

My heart is filled with passion
I have so much love inside
Will I ever unleash it
Or will it slowly fade and die

I wish that he would love me
The same way that I love him
Maybe I would stop shelving
All the love I have within