A Poem Of Thoughts ...

Can i ask you something?
Why is it that God put us down on this earth, to live a good life? To live a good and HEALTHY life? So many tears, and rough obstacles that we face. For what? Heartbreak? Fear? Suicide? Life's gone bad because they chose to take the wrong path, giving life has no manual. If God wants us to live the greatest life, assuming so, because he loves us all, and we are all his children, good or bad right? If all we have to look forward to is a painful death, taking us away from our "great" life, knowing very few die in their sleep, and of old age - just to go to heaven, where there are no tears, your pain free, healthy, and way younger, why not live that life to start with and die before we're even alive? I used to believe in miracles, but there has been nothing to prove they exist. I know Jesus had a painful death, but why should everyone else? If our lives, and each and everybody's deaths are to justify what hell he was put through, can you really name that as fair? It's our life, granted God gave us that, but if he granted us a life, to call our own, shouldn't we decide what we want to do with it, how we die? When we die? Life is more of a game then a success. A game of life - who makes it? Who doesn't? Who breaks? Who sticks together? Giving us things to face, to test our ability of strength and fear. Freedom is a phrase, not a fact of doing. My mom told me to pray to God, that God loves me more then she ever could, that he would never want to put us through something to end our life, or to put us through grief. Sure i can pretend to believe that's true, but i don't understand - where did it all come from? He created everything, so why is this brought to our attention? Some causes of death is weighed on the person, but for innocent people, why do they have to suffer from something that they defiantly didn't deserve?