Untitled (kinda long)

Sometimes you wonder
Why you do what you do
Why you like someone
Why he lives so far away
Cuz if he lived closer life would be easy again
But life isnâ??t easy
So nothing can be as simple as it seems
You want it to be but it canâ??t
You always wonder
What would happen if I did go out with him?
Would that change me?
Would I feel different?
Would he come see me?
Would I come see him?
Would I trust him?
Do I trust him?
Yes I do want to go out with him
Yes it would change me
I would feel so happy
So content with myself
I want to go see him
I would trust him
Why is it that I cry for no reason?
Is something wrong with him?
Is he okay?
Am I okay?
I think I am okay
I will never know
I feel so different when I talk to him
I feel so wanted
When he says he loves me he says it like he means it
When he wonâ??t take a nap because he wants to talk
I know that he wants to be there for me
I know he wants to talk to me
I know he wants to be my shoulder to cry on
Even if he canâ??t be here physically he is here emotionally
He know what I go through
We tell each other everything
We donâ??t care what people think of us
We both know we need to have a long distance relationship
We just pray it works
That one-day we will see each other
That one day if we see each other
There will be tears of joy flowing down my cheeks
That we could hug each other and know it will be forever
We both want each other to be happy
But sometimes I wonder
Are we really happy together?
I mean that yeah we have some differences
We donâ??t really let those get to us
We concentrate on the positive
Worry about the negative sometimes
But donâ??t make it an issue
We both live so far away
It makes you wonder
Am I really going to wait till I am 18
To get into a relationship with a guy
That I have never seen before
But I know everything about
That I fell head over heels in love with a year and a half ago
Is it worth the wait?
I think in reality people may think that it isnâ??t
But we know it will be
We are willing to wait
It will be worth it
The end result will be amazing
To finally feel heâ??s touch
And to know itâ??s for real and not a camera
To look at the real him and not a picture
To be able to have that feeling of happiness
To have that special feeling of security when Iâ??m in his arms
To have him tell me he loves me in person and not on the phone
Or computer
To know how it feels to be really loved
Not the feeling of oh yeah I like you but donâ??t love you
I want to know those feelings again
I want to be able to tell him I feel the same way
I want to be able to have a comfort in his arms
To just be able to have not fears when Iâ??m with him
To be able to go â??Ahâ?? and be relaxed
To be able to have a conversation without having any problems
To have a neutral situations stay neutral and not go negative
To want to stop the lonely feelings I have
When I see my friends hug
And kiss their boyfriends and girlfriends
I want that him to be here or me be there
So I can feel that feeling again
I want to be able to have that feeling again