During the night

During the night i toss and turn
trying to sleep in the confines of my room
pain overwhelms me
slowly i give up
and the minutes become hours
i feel imprisoned
my dreams
my hopes
my memories
have all led me to hate

I lost myself long ago
the sharpness and colors of my memory
have all faded
my emotions
have disintegrated
a stranger
has appeared
in my mirror

beautiful blue eyes
have become gray and black with pain and sadness
emptiness
never to be overcome

and i lost myself
when days weeks and months passed
and my heart felt nothing