Lost Forever

I have no reason to feel like this,
but it still seems that I wish to die.
I sit here lost and confused,
I have no idea why.

The tears wont stop,
I can't breath anymore.
I wish I could hide,
Just sit behind a locked door.

People say they care,
They forget I am even here.
I am scared of a lot of things,
Dying I do not fear.

Maybe it would be easier if I was dead,
I just hate going through all of this.
I had the time of my life last summer,
THAT I miss.

So I screwed things up,
with a lot of my closest friends.
I can't take any of it back,
I never knew that hating me would become one of those stupid trends.

I try to feel like a bigger person,
I try to act like I don't care.
It's tearing me down,
The pains of being lonely are hard to bare.

I am not going to see any of the people I cared about,
I decided that it would be best to just leave.
I thought it would be easier,
Its harder then you can believe.

I am falling apart without the ones I care about,
I have to stick to my word and stay gone for good.
It hurts so much,
They all hate me and they should.