Pain (really long)

The tears I've shed

Now are more than ever

I no longer can bear the pain

I endure, the suffering I am put threw

Day in and day out I wake up with

Nothing to live for but another day of pain

Today I did a bad thing

I got on my knees and

Preyed for god to take me away

I just want to be free

Free of ALL the pain and suffering

I endure I've delt with it to long

I can't hold it in anymore

This pain is killing me

In more ways than one

And no one sees what happening

The tears I've shed now are no longer over

Trivial things, selfish things there

About me and my pain and my hatred of life

And they want to know what wrong

With me if you really want to know ill tell you.

Everything's Wrong.

I hate life

I hate the pain

I hate the lies

I hate the suffering

I hate being Alive!

Because of this pain

I've become hostile to everything

To loved ones and friends

To life itself

But this new pain

Isn't from "her" it isn't from anyone

It's from being alone being hated

Being alienated.

I hate this life why can't I just be free?

Free from this pain

Free from the hatred and aloneness

Just leave me alone

Why me? Why am I the only one that

Can hurt that cant he bated

Why I don't get it WHY ME?

What did I ever do to deserve this?

This pain this life. I'm forced

To live alone in this pain

I just don't get it how everything

Can fall apart so fast in my bare hands

How that once decent life could

Fall so fast

I'm falling free falling

Alone falling so fast

Please someone save me

Save me from myself

Because right now I am my own worst enemy

Others today began to see

That I could fall over head

And not care because no one else would

I thought I was hurt before

But I never knew

I never knew how hard the road ahead was.

My emotions now unmasked

Scare me more than ever

Why do I deserve this torment

I just don't get it.

Why? Why me?

I've given up given up everything

I surrender to my pain

I can no longer fight it

I see how that life has

Given up on me just like so many others

No one knows what this is like

They can't

There is no way

Please just take me away!