The Longing

Forced to hold inside secrets untold
Of the thoughts implanted inside
Because I know this will never occur
My heart must patiently bide

We said we would never discuss it
That we could never be
But I'm still envisioning, still anticipating
As a hope hides within me

Before I lay me down to sleep
I fantasize about you
When I wake by the morning light
My first thoughts pertain to you

You think it's just a crush
Coming from a silly young girl
You're unaware that you complete a part
Of my current living world

What a fool I've become
I told myself I'd never fall again
Yet I keep returning
And getting burned in the end

Is this infatuation?
Or is this a heavy love?
How long am I to live in uncertainty?
When will this confusion cease?

This frustrates me so
My logic screams at me
Live up to who you say you are
And who you pretend to be

The girl who scoffs at romance
Is now falling at her knees
Begging for the guy she loves
To feel the same way, please

Someday I will recall this situation
And it won't matter in the end
Until then I'm a hopeless, lovesick girl
Awaiting her heart to mend