REBIRTH...

The words i speak,
i spoke,
i will
have been has-beens,
have nots
had i been the one-two-re-tres my tracks
that realization my will has came to the conclusion of
would have been deduced from jump....
now i was,
i am,
i will
or will not
won't not
will be
free
free...
free of myself
free of yourself
your...selfishness that has held me back
my....quickness to send distress signals
when things were,
was,
is too deep
and i was...
too shallow...
had i,
hadn't i,
have had a crimson reason
all along?
all the songs without melodies
have been a wretched reason for the
continuation
of my disintegration
and dissipation
into
this
abyss of hatred
abyss of permitted anguish
allowed to languish
and linger
disdain
giving fingers....
living in here
this life, this.....existence
it is ,
it was,
it will be....
what you make it....