ONE MOMENT OF TRUTH...

The sorrow I'm feeling

brings horrors unyielding

scars don't pause in their cause to cause tears and pain

years of shame have brought me

to this sordid taste of possible redemption

more sour than i imagined it to be

it used to be that truth perceived itself

to have wealth in knowledge

but now i am fully cognizant of the fact

that truth is no longer fact in itself

its distasteful presence presents this sour taste

which i spit to the ground

i have dug as my grave

to be buried among many whose potentials have varied

from stardom

to college

to basketball

and after all

have failed in the process

whether wasted talent or change in balance

whatever the direction was taken

i endeavor on a mission statement--

to rescind the truth

to rekindle youth

and seek lies

because lies tell me what i want to hear

instead of what i need to hear

they are much sweeter than the truth

immediate youth is presented in a lie

where I'll live forever in darkness and false pretenses

but in truth

I'll die yesterday

when i have yet begun to truly live