Only Me

This poem is about my feelings
Because they really do confuse me
I try to keep them locked inside
And attempt to hide the key

But sometimes I show my key
And give my heart away
I only give it to very special guys
They always give it back in pieces, but hey...

Sometimes I give it to a friend
Because I have complete trust in them
But sometimes they hurt me too
It seems to sadness I'm condemned

I guess I'm trying to avoid it
That one thing that bugs me so
Not really bugs, but more like hurts
Even though I wish it wasn't so

What I'm trying to avoid
Is my true feelings about those two
About him and her together
And how it makes me so blue

I say seeing them together
Doesn't hurt me at all
Because I've supposedly "moved on"
But that's not my heart's true call

I think about her and smile
We're becoming such good friends
She's such a fun person to talk to
I don't feel like our friendship is gonna end

I think about him and feel the same
Deep in my heart I still care
I get butterflies when I talk to him
I don't think he knows they're there...

I think about them together
And I really don't know what to think
How *Me -n- Him* turned to "Her -n- Him"
Is driving me to the very brink

I hate myself for all this pain
I set myself up, you see
It's my fault for believing in love
Even though no one knows this but Me