Why You?

Why did i think that i could learn to love you?
Why did i believe everything you said?
Why do i think I'm over you, and then you have to spark something?
Why are you such an ass?
Why do you enjoy hurting me?
Why is it that when you think i hurt you it not okay, but when you hurt me you do it as hard as possible?
Why do i hate you, when i care about you so much?
Why do i like you and not want you?
Why do i cry over you?
Why do i not want you as a boyfriend, but I'm not okay with anyone else having you?
Why is it that no matter how much i say this and more, I'll never mean any of it?
Why can't i hate you?
Why can't i lose you?
Why can't i leave you?