Lindsay...Goodbye

Lindsay,
I have lost the battle,
the will to live
cutting no longer soothes my pain
Life is the ememy
and death the friend

I am a disgrace to the world
a hazard to myself
I don't blame him for saying no
He deserves better, prettier, smarter,
than I

I am worthless
I was put aimlessly in this cruel world
Suicide has taken over me
It is the only way out
Please understand why I must go

From Heaven Above
Always and forever,
I will be your angel
Watching over you
Protecting you
Until we can be together again
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I wrote this a few weeks ago but wasn't brave enough to share x x