Sometimes

Sometimes I wish,
I could turn back time,
Make all the pain go away,
And make all the memories mine.

Sometimes I wish,
That I never met you,
Because the day that we met,
All my nightmares came true.

Sometimes I dream,
That I'm not living this way,
That I'm not all that sad,
And that I smile each day.

Sometimes I dream,
That someone will care,
And they'll take me away,
From all that's not fair.

Sonetimes I hope,
That this heartache isn't real,
And maybe somehow,
All my wounds could heal.

Sometimes I hope,
That you'll say how you feel,
And I won't be left hanging,
In a place so surreal.

Sometimes I try,
To be happy again,
But always it seems,
I lose in the end.

Sometimes I try,
To forget my past,
About all the times I've cried,
And all the scars that last.

Sometimes I wonder,
How I survived this long,
Because everything I do,
Turns out to be wrong.

Sometimes I wonder,
If I deserve to die,
Then I wouldn't have to question,
All the reasons why.

So why am I wishing?
I'm not living at all,
I'm barely existing,
Just waiting to fall.

Why do I dream?
It'd be simple to leave,
It'd just take one slip,
To add to my sleeve.

Why do I hope?
There's nothing for me,
I've looked forever,
And there's no one I can be.

Why do I try?
My heart's too torn,
My arms are tired,
And my emotions are sore.

Why do I wonder?
I know how this ends,
It's not a happy ever after,
It ends with nothing.