Why?

I want to cry
so bad it hurts
but i have to be strong
i must hold in my tears

I'm getting sick of hiding
all my problems
i want to let them out
so i cut, i cut until I'm numb

I've tried to stop but i cant
I've become addicted
I want to stop but i cant
I think I'm insane

I ask myself why
Why do i hurt myself?
Why don't i stop?
why cant he just love me?

does anyone understand me?
no,i don't think so, another reason for cutting.
I just want to be happy again
like when the only problem i had was a scraped knee...

an old poem i wrote...i don't cut anymore