The word goodbye

She looked at me and said goodbye
I had to stare and ask her why
Am I her friend or it's a lie
I thought I was , I walked for miles
Everyone could hear me cry
Am I that bad or
its me who is sad
even a rat would wonder why
a friend like this would say goodbye
a friend could hurt but not this way
nothing left except to pray
a friend could hurt but not like this
I dont want a hug or a even a kiss
I just wanna live far away
Where making friends is no play
I have no friends I am no one
My best friend now would be a gun