My feeling

Sometimes I think
There's nothing in this world to live for
Not for friends, family, or any one else
And then I met someone
Who changed my thoughts around
Who made me value my life
Who made me want to live
But likening her the way I did
Made me realize some things.
How painful life is
How much she hates me
How there is no chance for me to be with her
So I became a suicidal.
I was ready to commit suicide
I was ready to leave this world
So close to actually doing it
But I was stopped by my friends
GOD DAMM IT I WAS SOOO CLOSE!!
So close to leaving this world
So close to escaping my life
So close to dieing
But they just HAD to ruin this
Ruin my one chance to die
But no worries
I can always try again.
I would cut myself deeply
And watch the blood drip
Bruise my self badly
And let the pain take over what's left of me
There isnâ??t anything much
That anyone can do for me
Know one can help me with anything
Cause if they try, I'll just deny it
If they get near me
I'll make a scene
If they try talking to me
I won't reply
If you really want to help me
Then you should just
LEAVE ME ALONE
I have said this so many times before
But still know one listens
No one realizes what a favor they'd do
By just leaving me alone
People are trying to think of
Ways to help me
I have come up with some for you
First of all, LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
Second, you either kill me, or let me kill myself.
People think that they are helping me
By always being around me
Always talking to me
Always trying to make me feel better.
Thinking that they are pleasing me
BUT THEY'RE NOT!!!
But them being around me isn't what I want
I just want to be alone
No one understands me in this world
No one can see the real me
All you see is a person
Who acts happy
But deep inside
Is severely wounded
By a thing called love.
No one understands my thoughts
No one sees the real me.
I donâ??t even know who I am anymore
All I see in myself is
A dead person
Who is managing to somhow live in this world
I really don't know how I'm surviving.
I really hate being in a place
Where everywhere I go
People are starting at me
I donâ??t want to live my life
In a place where no one accepts me.
Just cause I'm a suicidal.
This It doest mean you have to despise me
I donâ??t want anyone in my life
Anything by my side
All I ever ask for is being alone.
Why can't anyone give me that?
Why is everyone all around me
Judging my cuts
Judging my personality.
Judging me
When they donâ??t even know me
Why do they have too be all around me
I have said this sooo many times
And I want you guys to listen to me
I'm desperately begging you
To just LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
I donâ??t' want anyone anymore
I don't want anything
I don't want to live anymore
I ask everyone who is reading this
To either leave me alone
Or kill me.
And I ask you
To do it as soon as you can.
Cause everyday I spend alive
Is like having a knife stabbed into me
And everyday that passes by
Is like someone twisting it and twisting it
Till one day, I'm going to die of pain.

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