I'm trying so hard; I always have
I've tried to lay down my issues, like I always have
I listen to my teachings, despite appearances
And yet I stand forgotten, like I always have
Blurred in the mist and haze
That seems to creep upon me
Draining me of colour and of life
While I stand in that one moment
Black and white
Everyone oblivious to my questions, to my answers
No one sees me as I stand
And as noon reigns I am banished to the night
Like I always was
I am clouded by it to the point
That I am just a thin wisp of smoke
Trying to get through a barred door
Just a thing wisp of grey, charred smoke
That just won't go away even if you don't always know it's there
I'm always here, you just don't see it
See me when I stand, hear me when I shout
And then, when you are sure there is nothing to know
You will know me and I shall know you
Little more than a shadow but full of life
Instead of darkness
Instead of fear, joy
Instead of me
You shall have you
