Promise To My Dad

Confused at why I am here today
There's so much drama that makes me not want to stay
Just wanting a peaceful life, but drama finds its way back to me
Why cant you leave me alone to be who I want to be?
Always thinking death is the only way out
And never am I positive, I'm always
in doubt
Mesmerizing about the days that were happy and fun
With such great friends, why do I run?
Is it so they wont see the real me?
How I am nice, good, and have so much sensitivity?
I don't know anymore and I really don't care
Because like everyone says, life isn't fair
It feels like my life is just gonna explode
And so I get sad and lonely nd ever so cold
I miss the good old days and everyone I love
I especially love my dad, who's watching me from up above
But I will go on no matter what comes my way
Because if it weren't for you dad, I wouldn't have made it, and be here today
Well, this is my promise to you, dad, from me
I will live life to its fullest, just watch, and soon you'll see