Girl looking for her true self

I looked up from my bed and into my mirror,
and it helped make my thoughts a little more clearer.

I looked at my face, trying to understand what you see,
But i still don't get it, cuz all i see is me.

My eyes are dark blue, crazy, & wild,
And it reminds me of the past, when i was a child.

The girl i see staring back at me,
Looks so much more unhappy than what she should be

God gave me a body, and a pretty face,
but everywhere i go, i feel out of place.

No one looks in deeper, inside my heart,
they judged my outside cover from the very start.

On the outside i may be, pretty and tall, this is true,
but the bruises on my heart, no one ever knew.

Someone should look deeper, to who i am inside,
cuz I'm not a real person, my true self i hide.

I don't lie or make up stories, i just fit it in,
but i lost everything when i started to sin.

I regret what I've done, but its too late now,
I'll try to be a better person, but i don't know how.

I'll go and do what i should have done,
and that is by myself and just have fun.

I'm going to need someone to help set me free,
but it shouldn't be too hard, cuz I'll just learn to be me!

~This took me a long, long time to write....this is how i will feel sometimes....like i act like someone else~