Painful love

I've shed tears and tears for this love
I have for you

Yet I find my self asking if all this pain is in vain

Is love suppose to be so painful??

What happen to pretty pictures about love
That seemed so colorful?

Is it nothing but a plain old Grey fantasy,
Or is there something that I'm missing

Love is suppose to be a joy, is suppose to bring
Happiness

But on the contrary I just feel this sadness

Sadness deep in the core of my heart, and its
Consuming me, like the flames consume a forest

But its also tearing me apart

Is there a lesson to be learned??

Or should I walk away, and let God
Work this out In his own way??

Either way

I need to face my reality and focus my mind
Putting this aside but for it to be there to remind

Remind me, that this did make me weaker but it made
Me stronger

Stronger of both heart and mind

Preparing me for what my future will unwind