I still have the needle
I used to break open the skin
His name was carved in
Almost as quickly as the wind
I thought it would go deeper
But I guess I was too afraid
Too afraid that he'd find out
Not afraid of all the pain
Pain doesnt hurt
If thats all you've ever felt
"He isn't the one to blame"
I thought, dropping to the floor
That was the last time
That Iv'e cried
Ever since then
I've been looking for someone else
I know I can find
Well I found someone new,
But he isn't my type
The day went by
And I thought of alot of stuff
That night
My attitude changed that next day
Everything about him
Boxed up and put away
Even that one picture
That was in my purse
It felt like something changed me
Like a curse
If it was, it didn't last very long
After a few days;after a few songs
My mind changed back
And I hoped no one would notice
I know you love her, not me
Thats a fact
So I'm jus gonna keep
Lying to everyone
Saying I don't love you
Saying that I'm fine
But the truth is it really does hurt
And day by day
Minute by minute
Inside I'm dying
Jen
My life is a total mess..alot of people's lives are but i think i got the worst.
