Alone

I am so alone,
No one to call on,
It's like I'm in a world of my own,
Without a phone
Always crying like a baby,
But still no one can hear me
I feel like crying right now
Because I'm feeling so down
Nothing can quite cheer me up not even my own my husband Chris Brown (I hope I'm wrong)
I look around,
To find some one to help me
But no one feels the pain inside that hurts me
No understand,
Not even my best friends.
I think its betrayal
But it's even worse than that
Hurt, pain, tears, and emptiness in the inside,
You can tell I ain't even got it going on, on the outside
I feel tears welling up in my eyes,
I'm just about ready to break down in cry.
But I can't, because I don't want people to feel sympathy.
Or act fake and act like they sorry for me.
Now that I'm sad all eyes is on me
You see, can you feel me?
No, I don't think so, because no one has been through what I've been through.
Not even you!
This is the worst time of my life.
I wish that only the one to help me was in my sight.
But where is he or she at?
I need them to get this knife out my back.
But then again the pain is not just there,
I feel it almost everywhere.
But still no one can feel pain.
That every second I gain
More & more by the minute
I wish I could just get rid of it.
But may be this pain is not so bad.
Why is it making me so sad?
Is it because I found my true love?
Does he love me as equally as I love him?
Or am I just one of them?
Does he feel the same way I feel?
Or does he think I'm trippin? And want to me chill
Will I always be alone?
Will I keep going through?
I hope not, because then I won't be able to prove that I love you.