As I lay here wide awake,
depressed and thinking about all my mistakes.
Before I sleep there's a risk I must take to give me a release from all the hurt and hate.
The blade comes close and near shaking when it finally gets here.
The tears drop down my face replacing the hurt with all this pain.
I cannot talk to none of my friends because I am affraid they'll never understand.
I wish it'll all just end but I know I must carry on being strong.
