Behind me

I can't seem to put this behind me
how easily you've forgotten what use to be
From show and tell
to hour conversations about heaven and hell
Planned furniture and children's names
don't think things will ever be the same
The past nine years were full of ups and downs
all the sleeps that have pasted full of memories being destroyed by hounds
Don't know how to change what I'm feeling
I really need some good healing
I'm in love with you
Now what am I suppose to do