One night

As i stare up at my sealing
I'm thinking about the fact that you're leaving
a lonely tear is running down my cheek
my entire body feels weak
on the table beside me there is a candle
just in case the pain is more than i can handle
i take my matches out there is a flame
i pull it along my arm and feel no shame
behind that closed door
I'm lying on this floor
leaving that burn mark to heal
the blade i now wanna feel
my eyes are clouded with tears
my mind is spinning with fears
this is my pain
and I'm so ashame