It Stopped Hurting

How many nights
Did I lie in my bed
Unable to get you
Out of my head?

How many tears
Fell from these eyes
Exploding from my broken heart
While believing all your lies.

It took me so long
And it took so much
to realise that
I don't need your touch.

I don't need you
And your heart-melting words
I don't need you
And this broken love
that hurts and hurts.

And it took so much time
For the pain to stop.
So much pain, so much shame, so much
Mistake
For all of these habits to drop.

But it happened
And that's why
I don't allow myself
To cry

Over you
and all
of your lies.

I finally picked up that place in my mind
Where all I can think of is you,
Fit it all nicely into my hand,
Wound up my arm and threw.

And it stopped hurting one day
After all of my
Hard work.
And now I can truthfully, honestly say
No longer
Do you hurt.