When No One Cares

I sit here writing my feelings inside
Sharing the pain of which i try to hide
Running through my head are suicidal thoughts
Ways to get rid of the pain that I've got.
On the inside i cry, on the inside i scream
Thinking of how real my nightmares seem
Watching things change before my eyes
Changing for worse and adding more lies.

Wishing the wishes that brings me death
I wish i could breathe my very last breath
I wish my life candle was no longer lit
I wish i could just tell God that I quit.

Overwhelming thoughts of "missing" the top stair
Hoping when I die, no one will care
But no matter how intensly I want to die
I couldn't just leave and cause others to cry.

But I SWEAR that the moment that im alone
And have not one contact on my phone
It Will Be Over

I SWEAR once no one in the world will shed any tears
I will do what I've wanted to do for years
It Will Be Over

I SWEAR in my coffin 6 feet down
I will smile when I hear the silent sounds
And say,
It Is Finally Over