Its me not you...

I`m trying to hide,
the feeling i had,
each and every day,
i can`t hold it anymore,

when ever im with you,
all i do is pretend,
the coldness in me,
the hate in my heart,

it`s me not you,
i take all the blame,
for hurting you,
without any reason,

i use to smile,
but not inside me,
i hated myself,
as well as my heart,

im trying to be happy,
but i failed to do so,
im giving a chance,
but i can`t deceive you,

i don't want to hurt you,
but you don't deserve me,
if only i could,
love you without pretension,

i`m sorry,
i don't intend to be like this,
its me not you,
its all because of me,