A Living Death

Gently down the street
i let the blade take control
How much do i have to bleed
Until I reach my goal

Death is what im getting at
High is what i feel
So many poeple i\'ve hurt in life
Time to let them heal

I\'ll say goodbye with a letter
I\'ll seal it with a kiss
tell them to visit my grave each month
and speak of what i miss

My friends can talk about school
and who they took to prom
my sister can speak of crushes
and my father about my mom

Finally my mind is darkening
I feel a weird type shiver
My body\'s waving back and forth
Like the flow of a steady river

My eyes I feel wide open
but still nothing is in sight
I begin to think and worry
and then i see this light

I hear a depened voice
saying look at what you\'ve done
i see my body on my bed
still releasing blood

my moms then at the door
calling for the meds
Im just looking down on them
listening to what is said

Finally they get there
they\'re rushing into my place
putting me on a bed of theirs
my death they begin to trace

Couldnt this be over
Why am i watching my self die
It was enough to feel the pain
But to see my loved ones cry

Burst into the hospital doors
people begin to stare
Could this possibly be i was loved
why was i so un-fair

To leave my family scared
wounds around their heart
I wish I was givin a second chance
I want another start

But wait i dont deserve one
for this is what i chose
My heart begins to beat
And suddenly i arose

There i am lying down
A smile appears on my face
Feeling my familys love again
Again my life i taste

Im surrounded with their hugs
Im then suffocated inside
Although i cannot breath
This time i do not mind

I was not happy before
But my new life goal is to strive
Im not perfect and either is home
Im just thankful im alive...