Forgive me Father for I have sinned 5-1-06

***Note: Before you read. This is basied off some thing that really happpened to me. My friend is A free lance priest. It's me talking to him. Yet I never let him see it. For he doesn't wish to talk to me.***

Forgive me Father, for I have sinned.

I know why you have a bad life, Father.
You see you push everyone away.
For the day I met you, you were reserved.
The Days Following you acted like you started to care, like you started to love me.
What a fool I was,
fooled by your brilliant acting.

I trusted you,
I cared for you,
I loved you.
At lest I thought.
Are you listening, Father?

You push everyone you meet away.
You test them, you change them.
I though I could change you, but you changed me.
I was so immature.
You feed me lies.
You gave me false hope.

You see you pushed me away for the thought I might have your effect.
Is it a sin to have a crush, a simple harmless crush?
You swore upon it that it was the effect.

No, no it wasn't the effect.
It was your lies,
your sins.

Could you take back the lies you so purposefully lied out for me?
Just take it back there only words.

But yet it was what you've been doing for years. To go against it would be morally wrong.

You say everyone has it out for you, but how can you be more mistaken?
Your the one hurting your self.
This catastrophe that you put on yourself.
I'm sorry, Father, but this is all true.
You pushed everyone away.
I feel sorrowful, for one day you will wake up and truly be abandoned.

Forgive me Father, for I think you have sinned.