My life is one big mistake
I can never be what I want to be
It just is not in me
I am what I am but I can never be what I want to be
Every place I go I find misery
No one wants a problem like me
No one wants a problem like me
Last night I sat down on my bed and cried
Head in my hands
My tears fell down like rain
I thought about how hard things are
About how things should never get this far
How I want to be someone I can never be
I cried and cried until my eyes ran dry
Trembling with exhaustion
Chest heaving
I realized there will never be more than this
It can never get better
Clinging on to the last bit of hope I turn on the radio
And there it was, playing just for me
One of my childhood songs bringing back a sweet memory
Some grey old man singing, life is real rough
Forgive yourself of your dumb slip-ups
Move on baby, it happens to the best of us.
Move on baby, it happens to the best of us.
I sat for a minute, mulling over what he said
I guess I am worth more living than I am worth dead
Life is a mean game and I am so sick of being beat
But I have nothing to lose, so I might as well cheat
And I, walked outside under the rain cloud
Let the drops wash away my pain and doubt
Took a deep breath and shouted so loud:
You cannot have me today
You cannot have me tonight
I am not leaving this way
Not without a fight.
