When love and death embrace

I have such a fascination
With my own suicide
Knowing how I'm going to do it
Knowing the exact date I will die

So, this love I have for death
The reality will come true
The effects of my suicide
Will all come out in you

I know how it will happen
The pain I'm sure to cause
The time is nearly here
I'm ready to close lifes door

Killing myself will be bliss to me
I will no longer have to push through
I am not thinking of any one but me
I'm sorry but I can't just live for you

I have to do things my own way
Even if that means I will die
I'm a fake, a phoney, not me
This is the path of my suicide

I do not consider this a plea
For help, or to save my sanity
I see this simply as a way
To let you know, I have it in me

Fantasies about this moment
Have embedded them self in my head
Voices are slowly creeping
Telling me I'm better off dead

When love and death embrace
You will see the end of me
My love for you no longer lingers
My death will set me free