Mi Suicidio español

Bring on the sunset. Red fades into black.
A sudden heart-attack fills my chest. Enter visions of your lips.
As waitresses dodge tables flirtatiously for tips.
Cigarette ignited, makes it hard for me to breathe.
And pirouetting smoke, spells out my disease.
The face in the bottom of my beer glass makes me choke.

So how come this place feels so empty.
With all these people here?
And how come in the only one.
Who fails to raise a cheer.

My words are so misleading, even make believe.
Even if this is bullshit, ill still find time to grieve.

Now Ive turned on to dance with death.
And my players on repeat.
As I stop breathing, time stands till and my world admits defeat.

Standing on the sand, tide washes away what was never there.
All that shit I told you, the stuff you longed to hear.
The site of a passing boat, makes it clear from these rocks, as a lump forms in my throat.
Not a care in the world could hold me as the waves embrace.

A floating body that soaks.