Drifting

My thoughts drift away
from my current boyfriend
and go to my dreams
of the past.
A past that held various
Amounts of happiness
Within good supply.
I review these dreams
Like a wish list
And realize things
That deal with love
Will never be the same.
Boyfriend after boyfriend,
I strive to find another
just like the one before.
I won't ever feel
Like I felt with him.
I suppose I'll never give in
To any man.
It will never be like it was
For anyone else
That I try to be with.
I just can't overcome
The way he looked at me,
Teased me,
Touched me,
And most of all,
Loved me.
A mere wink from him
Left me with a smile.
I would smile
Just to know he was all mine.
No one will ever kiss like him.
When someone holds me,
I won't feel safe
Like I did
In his strong arms.
I wish I could feel
That way again,
But the shivery feelings
Are always a dream away,
So to say.
I remember all those
Times very well.
I can stay in those moments
For about forever
Until I'm suddenly hit
With the truth of regret
And drift back
To reality where
The feelings aren't back.
The feelings are only memories
That are meant to stay
Because its always going to be that way.