Nice write even though I ain't the guy I'll still stand out in the rain just so you know ppl are there for you

Love Mike

Aww hun i know wat u mean and feel i am still here for u if u wanta talk
love u
xoxo robyn

Rain is a symbol for so many things in my life.... rain could come in showers of relief...or it could come like pins and needles... leaving you cold and wet. giving my current circumstance of living...,. rain is the later to me... but i'll gladly share that apin with you... because at leats i know that there is someone else that feels the same way that i do... lonely. i know that you that i would be there if i could.... but just think of this.... i'm only fifty miles away from the canadian border... and if there ever was a chance for me to get my life back together i would come over there to you and prove that i'm not going to run away.... i've your picture... and tehre is absolutly no flwa that i could find in it... you are a beautiful red head *is grinning right now*. you are a blessing to me...do you know why? because you've gone through the same horrible feelings of rejection that i've been through.... and there si no one else on this earth that understands that feeling more then i do... my own parents rejected me... but i still pray for restoration in my family... i still pray for my stepdad...even though he's been the main reason why i'm out of my mom's house.... you've read right along with me as i went through that crap with that other girl.... the one that thought it was okay to be medeocre with our relationship... i put so much thought and effort into making sure that she knew what i felt about her... but she would barely even try to do the same for me... it was like i was talking to air.... and i'm sure you know that feeling too... i meen there are so many times where i poured my heart out to people that could care less... and i'm amazed that still... even after all this time... i still let my guard down... istill have love in me... i still desire to love another... and this case it is you... i meet so many people throughout the day.... they are so mismatched in thier love it's crazy.... you can so tell when someone doesnt feel the same towards someone else... i see it all the time.... and i could tell that it was that way for you with david.... i could see it in the way you wrote... you never talked about the way he lifted you up.... or the way you anticapated seeing him... you just wrote about how he was missing something... how his words where so few and far between... it was deppressing to read what you had to write about him... it drove me nuts..... after awhile i just stopped reading what was in the love categories... and skipped to the ones about life... and about the weather... you have such a beautiful way of describing how wonderfully healing the weather can be... you really have a awesome conection with nature... it amazes me... and believe me... you have been through the lowest low.... wanting to die... like i have.... you have overcome that desire to end your life... and that it was always made me wonder... i couldnt understand how you could still go on living.. and then i realized why... it was the same reason why i'm still alive.... it's because we where blinded.... we where both so naive' to believe that the ones that we loved actually shared the same feelings for us.... we would justify why they werent there for us.... we would excuse away the silence... we would pardon the carelessness.... because we where so desprete for someone to love and hold onto... we just loved to the point of overlooking every fault... and never questioning...because we thought that if we questioned the one that we loved ... they would leave us... and we actually thought that there wasnt anyone else out there for us.. and we thought that it was a miracle in the first place that that person even gave us the time of day... well i'm not going to lie to myself anymore... i know that there was and still is that person out there that i can connect with.... and that person has already showed how wonderful and trusting she can be... that is you... and i dont care about distance because that just gives me the chance to prove how faithfull i can be to you.... to prove how long i can wait and hold on.... words can do wonders... and even though i cant be there in person to hold you, i know and trust that you can feel what i feel about you through what i write... i love you wholeheartedly... with all my being.... and i know how hard it is to be alone... and feel unloved.. that's why i love you so much... because you are still holding on... and still going forth... and there si nothing in this world that i respect more then your will to keep living... it 's just such a achievment....i dont know if you actually believe me but i do, i respect you so much.... and love you for the way you make me feel... like i can go on as long as you still here...as long as i can still look forward to what you've got to say... and the beautiful way you put your words together... it's the most encouraging feeling... knowing you....
thank you for your faith... and your will... and your strength... you are such a example to me... if that isnt a reason to love you, i dont know what is *big goofy smile* :)
your admirer...
phil

Andy i dont understand why u would say those things about me... they are not true that is not the reason that i have stoped talkin to u... its just that i couldn't take it anymore... all your feelings about wanting to die and all the others... i could not go day by day wondering if this is the day i am never goin to see u again... dont u GET that i loved u as my sister and could not take it so i had to get out... i am sorry i hurt u... but i just could not do it... its just i need space... i hope u can understand that and the whole think wit daivd i knew because sam asked me if u had a b/f named daivd i am sorry if i hurt u by not telling u but i did not know how... i knew it would break your heart and i am sorry that is all i can say is that i am sorry.... anyways i wish u luck and i am here to talk if u wanta
xoxo
robyn

There is one thing that i have to stress really clearly.... when i write my feelings down in these comments, i put alot of effort into them.... and i want the same from you... heart felt comments... to show howmuch we love eachother... this is the same thing i got upset over with my last online relationship.... she never put any thought into what she sent me... and it felt like i was doing all the work... we've got to know what we feel about one another... or else there isnt anything to go off of... so now i told you how i feel about you... can you please tell me what you think about me.. what you want me to be... what you think i could improve in? anything really.. anything at all.. just tell me something... i know you think i'm a all that a guy should be to a girl.. but do you think about how that makes you feel? what do you think about all that i write about... i really want to hear your thoughts... if this is going to workout i need you to promise me that you stay with me... and that you keep the connection going through feedback... think about it... i meen since we cant see eachother right now... we need words to comfort eachother... and i dont want to get caught up in something where i have to defend myself because with jennifer, she always said i was to demanding... but really it's the basic requirments for communication that i was asking for... if i didnt have that.. it left me in the blank.... and i dont think that we'll be able to communicate through myspace.. there's no way i can get through anymore... because anytime i try to get through the url is blocked... so we have to email eachother or you have to start using your account on the allpoetry site.... i left you a message on there.... and i left you a message on myspace... read the message on myspace... but dont write your reply on there... use either the allpoetry site or my email address....
i want to let you know we can work this out.. and you'll have the most loyal boyfriend, if you only keep up with feedback... and keep in touch with me... i love you darling... and i wish i was there with you.... i'm thinking about this spot right now at headlands beach where i live... it's so peacefull there... i wish you could be there with me....
the man that wants to be your other half,
phil