The break up

I didn't mean to make him mad
i didn't mean to break his heart
something came over me
and i started to think of how it used to be
when we were friends
it was the same
when we went out
it was insane
it was like i was a trophy
something to claim
to him i wasn't a girlfriend
just a thing with a name
he never called
and was never there
his excuses came up every second i asked him a question
i wasn't that important
i know I'm not the coolest chick
but i was the one he picked
the least he could do
is treat me like a girlfriend
i thought it would be better this way
but i guess i was wrong
I'm about to go insane
i used to say
I'll never date a friend
this time i did it again
it ended the same as the last one
where i was ignored and left
i wasn't even there
like a ghost with only one wish
that wish to be noticed
so instead of being with him at the movies
I'm sitting here writing this poem
my dreams have all shattered
now I'm left with no life
i know i was the one
that ended this all
but the least he could do was say hi
i wish we were friends
i wish he only knew
the one thing i didn't wanna do
was hurt him
this is all true
right now i don't know what to do
but sit and think it through
was what i did right?
did i just screw it up?
right now I'm not sure
i thought my love was pure.
everything i do is wrong
i thought everyone knew that
i guess thats all to say
except that I'm the one to blame
I'm gonna go
and hope things change