Any Last Words?

To my dearest friend,
I know sorry won't cut it this time
But please try to forgive me
this is my last chance to say goodbye

I love you more than words can say
You mean more to me than anything
I'll watch you from up above
and rejoice when I hear you sing

Promise you'll come to my funeral
I've never before seen you cry
I miss you so much already
I don't think I'm ready to die

Somethings wrong and I can't fix it
I don't know how to ask for help
I caused you enough trouble already
I'm sorry for living as well

I can't go on like this any longer
And you can't spend your life helping me
I wish that I could've been stronger
I wish Someone could've SEEN

You can't blame others for my decision
I'm fully the one at fault
I'm tired; I just want to go to sleep
and never ever ever wake up

I'm tired of hurting, tired of pain,
I'm tired of being alone
Free me from eternal confusion
Father, take me home

I miss you, I'm sorry, I love you,
There's not much more I can say
I know that I'll see you in heaven
If you can forgive me someday.

This one's for you Kumu.
I really do love you.
I'm sure we'll meet again someday in the future, or perhaps sometime soon.
Will you play your steel guitar at my funeral?
Will you laugh or cry or sing?
"MY KANANI"
Together,
but never again.
Our Song.
Our inside joke.
Ke aloha mai e Kumu
You'll need it where I'm going.