Why me?

Rainbows and butterflies,
Those are not me,

Open and sharing,
Nor I may be,

Glad and happy,
I'm not that full of glee,

Horrible and deathly situations,
Those keep happening to me

I quietly ask the Lord,
Why me Lord? ,why me?

People all around me,
Show nothing but negativity,

I try to smile and keep all my feelings in,
But sometimes you have to let your feelings be free,

All I have in my mind is,
R.I.P. ,Grandma, R.I.P.