Beautiful disaster

This is who I am now
I cry out to the stars
Maybe they will lead you back
Knowing you're out there
Poised by their charm
I wilt alone

This sad existence
My so called life
Its meaningless
Our moments lost
Like tears in the rain
The memory remains

Its wrong to miss it all
Your feelings faded.
With fear of loss
Mine was to subside
If time heal all wounds
Why am I still bleeding for you?

So just wither away
And grasp whats left
A broken heart is no way to die
But why fight the pain
You destroyed my being
You are my beautiful disaster.