Just have to Let this O.U.T...*

This is just something I have to let out...

I hate this thing called my life
I hate this suffering and pain
There's just so much to lose
And so little to gain

Is this what they call depression?
Or just a long faze
I've become so lost
In this non-ending maze

I just want to leave
This world doesn't want me
I just want to escape
All the pain surrounding me

There's only one good thing
In my life and thats my boyfriend.
But though he tries to sympathize
He still can't fully comprehend

Suicide, thats my constant thought
But I'm trying so hard not to
Because even with all this pain
I know suicide is not what I have to do

I have to remain hopeful
Speaking inspirational words
Even if I don't believe
Any word thats heard

Maybe one day I'll return
To the happy state I once was in
Maybe this fight for joy will end
Maybe this fight I could finally win

Please comment and vote, I just had to let out!:|/:)