So many times I wish I could have the faith and strength to pull the trigger. But yet there is always some thing holding me back, maybe it's fate or just maybe it's my own ignorance. I think I'm already dead in a way. Physically I'm fine, but mentally I've been dead for a long time. In my life nothing seems to be going right, but where is it my place to say my life isn't going all right. It may be selfish but I hate my life, and I wish I had the faith and strength to pull the trigger. My life is a joke, I know it my family and friends know it, it's all understood. I have but one wish in life and that is a “death wish.” And with in that wish I wish I could be free, free of the pain and free of the needing to be dead.
