It\'s hard to look at you,
and pretend that it\'s okay,
it\'s hard to look at you,
and not know what to say,
it\'s hard to look at you,
and know that i love you,
it\'s hard to look at you,
and pretend it isn\'t true,
it\'s hard to look at you,
and pretend that i don\'t care,
it\'s hard to look at you,
and pretend that it is fair,
it\'s hard to look at you,
and pretend that it\'s not love,
it\'s hard to look at you,
and pretend i know what your thinking of,
it\'s hard to look at you,
and remember what we had,
it\'s hard to look at you,
and pretend we didn\'t end bad,
it\'s hard to look at you,
because your my best friend,
it\'s hard to look at you,
and pretend that i\'m not dead,
it\'s hard to look at you,
and fake that akward smile,
it\'s hard to look at you,
not even for a while,
it\'s hard to look at you,
when you make me feel this way,
it\'s hard to look at you,
and ignore the things i want to say,
it\'s hard to look at you,
and pretend that it\'s not real,
it\'s hard to look at you when i feel the things i feel,
it\'s hard to look at you,
and make it seem okay
it\'s hard to look at you,
and not give up and say,
mark,
you know i love you,
your perfect beyond compare,
you taught me how to love,
when nothing in the world seemed fair,
you showed me that there is a light,
in everything i do,
you taught me how to see,
but i feel in love with you,
you could never love me,
not the way i hope,
you can say you love me,
but it\'s not the way you thought,
the love you feel for me,
is not the love i want. . .
you don't love as if we're best friend,
just as if i'm here,
i'm losing you more each day.
crying every day in the silence.
but you're too busy to hear.
