That's what it's like to be me

A couple of people... Anna mostly tho... but im so happy she is finally talking to me without like sending me hateful looks! It makes me dance *dances*

I just took the time to read ur poem and i think u should just wait and see how things go before u go to far
be careful ;) and good luck :)
ps. come read my new poem
xoxo
robyn

Hmm... well its worth a shot if you love him... but we weary... u might get hurt!

I AM SORRY
i cant believe i upset u so much i never ment to upset or hurt u i dont know wat to say
right now i just need to find myself again i dont think i will ever be the same i am sorry for everything
u have someone now who can be there for u more then i ever could... keep him close
i hope u can forget me and u can move on from this and learn from it
and i am REALLY sorry about that hole daivd thing
alright i think i have said all i can right now
so talk soon maybe
robyn

Honey... you got someone in your life right now... who loves you and who also loves the Lord... and when i read something like this...well it's makes me mad.. first off at the world... second off.. at you because you are so much stronger then this.. i know your independent strong side... and that's the most beautifull thing about you.. your friend didnt leave you for you... she probably left because she thought it was hopeless.. because the attitude you displayed in this pome.. makes it seem like you've given up on happiness.. and the worst part about this is for me because i felt that way before... and i know my train of thought when i have feelings like that... it's a whoa is me kind of thinking.. when you have someone that loves you like i do... and i love you as far as the east is from the west... (which is never ending btw)... you shouldnt be down like this... she's a friend.. and friends come and go... and if you keep thinking that the friend you have now are the only friends you'll ever have.. well that's just a defeatest mind frame... you just spoke defeat over your life when you wrote this... honey... if you constantly speak defeat into the atmosphere.. that is what you will get... when you project negative feelings of hopelessness, you open yourself up to demons in your life.... i dont want you to be this vunerable... and right now i wish with all my heart that i could wrap my arms around you... you are so much stronger.. there is nothing you cant do with Christ on your side.. and i hope your not offended by that... it's something i've believed that has pulled me through... every poem that i've wrote about pain... it's simply a vent.. it is not how i will feel forver.. and sometimes.. it's just a way of speaking words out in the open to get them out of me... and i hope that's what you where doing... because i know how it feels to be rejected... and i wouldnt wish that on anyone.. it's the worst thing in the world... i love you baby.. and i will never reject you.. i will stick by that promise.. i am faithfull though.... and it sounds like you dont belive in anything... if you dont believ that God can pull you through this.. then believe me...i've been through this shit... i'm not going to inflict what i've been through on you... i cherish the fact that you are in my life.. up untill now no one has accepted me for who i am... and you've accpeted me with open arms... and dont know how much that heals me.... how much of a blessing you are to me... you woke me up out of a long nightmare... and i'm never going back now that i have you... i dont know how many times i can say this... i love you... i love you i love you....
ha! i love you....
so there...
my feelings in a nutshell...
i want you to cut this sorry bullcrap out....
and believ in me.... because i am there for you baby...
your other half,
phil