Going Crazy

Tears spill onto my lashes
I stare into an oblivious gaze
I can't seem to let go
I keep dreaming of the days...

I peer down onto my arm
The scars are still there; no surprise
So are my bruises underneath
My clever, all around disguise

Time cannot erase it
All of the pain inside of me
My heart hurts, so do I
I think I'm going crazy

Finally, I cannot take it
When I am alone, I look around
I curse everything, shout and scream
Anything I just begin to pound

I shatter glasses and tear apart things
My heart and soul hurts so bad
I remember all and everything
That makes me this sad

I rip apart all of those photos
I tip over the tables and chairs
I know later I'll be in trouble
Oh f-it, I don't care!!

I break the laptop, and keep going
I smash all of my old things
Burn Cd's, and the surface of my skin
Don't care about the pain it brings

From the bin I grab a bottle
It's alcoholic smell is still there
I shatter the end, cut my skin
I sit down and chant a prayer

I storm away into the unknown
My blood trails me from behind
I go away from all those who hate me
Far away from all mankind

Who knows what will happen
I'm so torn apart in every way
Life seems pointless, it suffocates me
I don't think I wanna see another day....