History.

Believe me when I say it, I'll wait forever.
The day may never come but I'll be here.
One day I can finally open up to you,
Until then I could drown in my own fears.

I fear rejection but even more so
That you'll never know how I feel,
So many emotions I kept inside,
But now life's never felt so real..

Apart of me is waiting to give up on you.
I want to free myself this pain that I choose.
The stakes are high and there's so much grief.
And I realize everything I'm about to lose.

Soon it will be too late for us.
And time we leave us behind.
And sail off into the open waters.
I guess time was never on our side.

Its true, you mean everything to me.
So I write it on paper hoping one day,
You'll finally be able to see my true feelings.
Maybe then I'll know what to say

For now I'm at a stumble for words.
I want to tell you how special you are.
But my words would only get lost.
Because your soul is so far

There are days could've last forever.
Times that I'll never forget.
I just don't understand,
Why you're so filled with regret?

What's done is done, its history,
You can never take it back.
I can't ever say you were a mistake.
You were an exception and thats a fact.

I don't want to hear a single word.
I know what you want to say...
But go ahead destroy my reality.
Set free the lie I live with each day.

So I'll give up on you, I'll give up on us.
I'll take it all, all the pain and grief.
It's not about you, its about me now,
Hopefully with closure comes great relief.

But maybe I'm just kidding myself.
Maybe I'm too scared to face pain,
But all of that will be lost,
Just like tears in the rain.

Thanks for Reading!
--emotionless.19