To what?

To walk away from all life's pain
to just be myself again
to see simplicity as a blessing
to enjoy life alone on its own

to understand why I do what I do
to understand why I say what I say
to find out why I live my life this way
to be joyful through all life's pain

to never care about a mirror again!
to trust God with everything I do
to figure out why I'm me
to figure out whats wrong with my personality

to figure out how I hurt people so I can change
to never be monotonous
to never chastise or complain

to never judge or a person try to rearrange
to for once have someone love everything about me because its me

thats what I want to know
thats the way I want to be