I wish you loved me
The way I love you
And you wonder why
I want to get close to you
With the way you look at me
I can\'t help but stare
At the way the light
Shines on your hair
And I can\'t help but see
Your beautiful eyes
Why I feel this way
I don\'t know why
You said you loved me
I didn\'t think that was true
Because you act so odd
When I\'m around you
And when I am
I feel so dense
So lost, confused,
Stupid, and dense
And when I get
What I\'ve longed to endure
It feels so wrong
Because you seem so unsure
But it doesn\'t matter
Because I can\'t feel
No matter how deep the wound
Nor how real
The pain just seems
To be caused by you
But it\'s all just me
And how I think of you
I feel so stupid,
Desperate, and lost
But I want to be with you
No matter the cost
Every moment
Every breath I take
That I\'m without
Isn\'t worth being awake
And now as I try to sleep
I write this
You\'re in everyone of my thoughts
And I can\'t help but miss
The way you always
Smile at me
You always seem
To make me happy
Everytime I close my eyes
I see your face
Why is you image
So hard to erase?
But I can\'t help but think
And it horrors me to
This this\'ll never work
It\'ll never do
But I\'m afraid to let go
And I really don\'t want to
But it seems you don\'t care
Or just how much I want you to
But I guess wanting
Is all I can do
I guess I\'m just asking for too much
And I know it\'s not okay too
I\'m sorry for it
And I\'ll continue to be
I\'m just stupid
I wish I could see
If you felt this way
About me
Wasting your minutes
Writing poetry
About wanting something
You wish you had
Abdout wishing for someone\'s love
It seems like you\'ll never have
What I\'d do
What I\'d give
Just to have
A simple kiss
Just for our lips
To meet one time
I would give up
The rest of my life
And you\'d probably think
Of me stupid now
Writing so many things
That I\'m afraid to say aloud
But hopefully
You\'ll never see
This worthless poem
That lay before me
You\'re all I want
And all I need
I need not cutting
I need not to bleed
And I told you I stopped
For real this time
And I\'m sorry
That it was a lie
But you wouldn\'t
Believe me anyway
Like I\'m one big lie
Like I don\'t matter to say
Now I\'m embarassed
For writing so much
My face, stained with tears
My mind is out of touch
Because I\'ve been awake for an hour
Writing this **** (can i swear??)
Just to say that I love you
And that\'s really it
