Temptation
Can't, alone, eager, pain, edge, incision, me
Wanting to be alone feeling a hatred that cannot be described
Inside my shell I always find myself able to hide
But to what extent is this hiding going to do this for me
So much anger that I can't take it but to want to commit me
Just one knock, just one knock could do me better
But no one can spare me the favor
Could anyone care anymore for what I want from them
But I suppose no one even cares
Just one slip and I'm angered
The drain closes and the water floods in time
Each second causes the water to rise
Each attempt to open the drain is a unnecessary task
The water rises
Though the drain is open
No
Every walk home is a wasted attempt
I gain no pleasure in speaking with them
No
I never get home anyway in the end
But I can't help but fight my temptation
No
I can't just leave in the wait for this hour
Being alone would just cause me more problems
No
I don't do all of this all in my own favor
But only to satisfy them
Still waiting
Still dreaming
Just because I'm different it shouldn't be mocked in my place
Just because I'm in front of you doesn't mean you should joke
Just because I'm the one who doesn't want to be the same
Just because I'm the one fueled by all this anxiety
Just because I'm the one feeling the pain
And I'm feeling this pain from me
Resistance
The cure to this disease is only under my eyes
But I can't find it after one million times
I continue to search as I wait in the line
And now it's my time
Fine, I'll do what you ask
It's not like I would care any other way
I ignore the need to sanitize at need
It's all the same
I draw on my arm another fantasy
This blue ink will only last so long
They all help in the process I start
And poison sinks into my blood
I am slowly dying
Lay awake
Lie awake
Stay awake
This night just drags on and on
Lay awake
Lie awake
I'm awake
And the night drags on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on
Still awake
Now awake
Too awake
The hours just grow longer and longer
Still awake
Now awake
I'm awake
And the hours grow longer and longer and longer and longer and longer and longer and longer
Security remains an obscurity
All my impurities stay with me
Assuredly and moderately
This obscurity remains within me
As I continue to write on and on my eyes bleed mellow from the blinding light
The agonizing electric lights continue to burn my eyes in the midst of the night
No longer how long I write I'll feel no better in the words that I send
For now I feel that this song makes no sense
As I continue to burn my eyes in the midst of this night
The agonizing electric lights bleed mellow in my sight
No longer how long I write this song will make no sense
For now I feel no better that these words have been sent
So should I end it despite that I don't want to?
I feel it's too late
