You don't know me
Don't act as if you do
All you can do is be
The person who makes my heart two
I'm never standing tall
In your defying eyes
I always fall
My wings never fly
In the shadows I stay
Never truly known
For all the times I pray
No love I am shown
You don't know me
You never wanted to
Why can't you see?
The problem is you
I'm alone in my mind
I wish you knew my heart
All the things I try to find
There's no where to start
In the forest I run
Looking for a place to hide
All the damage is done
All the times I lied
In the long grass I lay
Watching the clouds pass
The grass slowly plays
As I remember the past
All the blame I put on you
How unfairly I did so
The blame is on me too
But with all this hurt, how am I supposed to know?
I'm so lost and confused
I don't know how to think
This situation isn't defused
I'm at the brink
You don't know me
You didn't even try
Why can't you ever see?
I slowly die
Hands outstretched
Waiting for you to come forward
But, backwards you lurched
Don't you want to move onward?
As good as dead, you say
Don't tell yourself this
Please be in this world to stay
You, I surly miss
I remember you where there
For me when everything was wrong
Now everything is wrong for you, and it's not fair
Because I didn't end up staying for long
I can't hide the sadness
In my eyes of late
This pain is there with such starkness
Leaves me in a depressed state
I can't stop the tears
I can't stop them falling
Everyone seems not to hear
My sobs, I'm still calling
You don't know me
Well, that what I thought
But you always did see
I never did give such deep thought
It seems that you always listened
Always to be there
It was me who was distant
How could I be so unfair?
I'm the one who is so wrong
The one that caused this to be so bad
It was I all along
Who sabotaged this, how sad
My tears haves no meaning
Since I am the cause for all this
But they leave my eyes searing
I could take to myself with fists
I'm the one to blame
And Rian, I'm ever so sorry
I have put your honour to shame
I've treated you so poorly
Iâ'm an idiot for hurting you
For doing all those things
I'm so sorry to do
All those stupid things
Rian, I never meant to
Blame this all on you
I don't know what to do
I can't help it; I love you
I leave this feeling
For you to find
I can't start healing
I hope they're not the last line
The guilt is always around
I'm reminded everyday
By the sadness to be found
On Tamika's face, no words left to say
Its hit everyone
I can't believe how many
How can I ever have fun?
If, without you, I have no sanity?
I cant describe how sorry
I feel every single day
I don't know why I never
Said the words I need to say
I can't believe its over
I can't believe I blamed you
I can't believe I never
Get to be part of two
I hope that you read this
I hope that you understand
Why I wrote this
This is my selfish stand
Please comment on this poem, so I can see if I need to improve on my writing skills. Thanks
